I am so tired, but it feels awesome to be back in the groove of things at work. I’m still struggling a little bit with my serving skills, but it’s getting better. I’m starting to be able to remember full orders, and go from memory without having to look at the order form. That’s pretty exciting.
School starts in less 18 days, and I can’t wait. Daddy wanted me to take fewer classes so I don’t overwhelm myself, because I tend to regress back to the way I use to be when I’m overwhelmed. When I’m so focused on school and work, I retreat into myself and keep everyone at arms length. I know, not healthy – nor is it fair to daddy.
So, I’ve lost three pounds so far ;D I’m beyond happy about that, because it’s something that I’m trying really hard to do, you know? My knee is finally feeling better, so I’ll be able to go back to the gym soon. If I’m doing pilates at home, then I can use to the gym to do cardio and weight training.
I don’t need to lose weight in my legs, but cardio will burn fat everywhere too. So, I do need that in my regimin as well. Daddy and I set my first goal, and I only have ten more pounds to go! I should reward myself or something when I reach that goal. I’ll ask daddy what he thinks.
So, lastnight was a breakthrough for me. I finally had a BREAKDOWN, and started bawling my eyes out on the phone with daddy. I became so overwhelmed with love and desire for him, that I realized that he honestly IS everything to me. He’s honestly my world. I love him beyond words or expression, all I could say is..he’s my life, the air I breathe and the hope that fills me up..all him.
Okay, I’m done eating – so I’m going to call daddy back. ;D
